accidental existence

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“…it’s hard to beat the system when we’re standing at a distance…” September 25, 2017

Filed under: Uncategorized — emletterman @ 11:10 am

It seems the more life changes the more it stays the same.

No update on Letterbaby yet.
Still, we wait.

I am drowning in #bakingforababy orders this week.
A good problem to have.
I increased the price to $30.
I feel bad about that.
But I was having to buy so many supplies for specialty things, it wasn’t worth it.
“Worth it” is relative.
If I bake a cake, it takes me three hours and I make $5 total for the fund, is it worth it?
Yes, I did make $5.
But we will get no where fast at that rate.

I feel bad asking our friends and family for money.
More money.
Baking is a way I can give them something in return.
It’s still not my favorite.
I’m a shitty salesman.

Team Baking for a Baby will have a booth at an upcoming Junior League event.
I’ve been overwhelmed by the generosity of people willing to donate to the booth.
It’s going to be a furious few days of baking leading up to it.

I’m nervous though.

What if I bake all these things to sell and nobody buys them?
Then I’ve taken money from Letterbaby.
The exact opposite of my goal.
There’s a balance there I’m sure.
I just can’t see it yet.

Starting my fifth week at the new gig.

It’s cold in my office today.
That’s a problem I’ve never had.
Always hot.
I have a desk fan.
Walked down to the second floor healing garden for some sun exposure.

Adam hasn’t assembled our Billy the bookcase yet.
The nursery is in chaos.

As is this process.

Not outwardly, but there are so many variables.
I have this bad feeling in the pit of my stomach.
Nobody will ever pick us.

We will wait forever.
We will wait until it’s too late.

Baking for a Baby refunds?

Today is Monday.
It feels like it should be raining.
It’s not.

I’m trying to drink my water this week.
My weight loss has stalled.
I’ve plateaued as they say.
Roller coaster of ups and downs for two months.
Makes me angry.
I was advised to drink my water.

I’m 32 ounces in and I already hate life.
The bathroom is too far away for this.

Saw Kingsman this weekend.
Not as good as the first, but better than most sequels.

Food at Alamo Drafthouse is too expensive.
One adult milkshake, a lemonade and some gummy bears.
$20 gone.

I’d like to eat at Lambert’s soon.
Hot rolls are life.

Adam has tennis tonight.
I’m on the find something to eat on the way home train.

I think I’m gonna do the Turkey Trot this year.

My Apple Watch won’t sync to my new work Wellness portal.
Mac and Windows don’t play well together.
Which means I don’t get my daily point.
My daily $1.
They said they created a workaround.
But it doesn’t work.
For anybody in my office.
But they keep telling us it does.
I’ve yet to meet anybody it works for.
Lots of people use Apple Watch.
Just sayin.
Why can’t we all just be friends?

I brought another lamp to my office.
Very moody in here.
Fits today.

Lots of meetings on tap this week.
Two field trips.

I’m tired of waiting.

Don’t mind me, I’ll just be right here.


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