accidental existence

Life, one sentence at a time

“…I’m gonna find another you…” October 26, 2012

Filed under: Uncategorized — emletterman @ 10:25 am

This week has been crazy.
Some good.
Some bad.

I cried at my desk the first three days.
This is not the writing I’m used to.
I’ll get it, but it’s hard.
I feel like I’m doing everything wrong.
All the time.

Adam has been great.
All week, at every minute.
He really is my rock.

I feel nervous about today.
This huddle business.
My first real interview.
It’s weird because I know what to do and not what to do all at the same time.

I want to leave early today.
I’m tired of being at this desk.
I guess that’s the life of an editor.
I like being out with the people.

I hope I fit in soon.

Business is not news.
It tries to be, but the thrill is not there.

I need to develop sources.

I park in a parking garage now.
It was pouring rain yesterday.
I would have never known if my car hadn’t been by the edge of the garage.
It’s covered from my door to the car.

Working downtown feels so swank.
Except for the hobos.
Jimmy John’s delivers however.

Chuck ran out as I left this morning.
I had to let Annie out to chase her down.
She got me hairy.
Annie jumped on me with mud feet.

This blog feels down.
I feel low.
I’m climbing, but I can’t seem to get any traction.

I want this to day to be good.
I am not optimistic.

Really looking forward to this weekend.
I want to savor it.
I want to do nothing and everything.
I want to sleep in.
I don’t want to waste a minute.
We’re carving pumpkins.

Annie’s not doing so good with my new schedule.
I’m gone most of the day.
Four hours of lack-luster playtime at night aren’t enough.
She’s going to get a complex.
And be sad beagle.

We got our Hopper.
Thank goodness.
With this new schedule I don’t have time to set things.
On the flip side however, I don’t have time to watch them either.

Thursday is my new Monday.

I count in words, not characters.
I’ve never met someone who counts in characters.
Inches and words.

I edit A LOT of stuff.

Plus side is cute clothes.
I’m going to run out of options.
Trying not to think about that.
Today I wanted to wear jeans.

I have snow leopard now.
I downloaded Chrome.

It’s a whole new world.

Missed both my gym appointments yesterday.
No more appointments on Thursdays.
I haven’t been to the gym all week.
I’m so tired after work.
I need to schedule some time.

My whole life feels so different.
Everything I knew to be true is off.
Not wrong, just different.
Even my AP style knowledge.

Many of my CC friends wished me luck Monday.
It made me cry and miss them.

Puggy knows what I’m talking about.


2 Responses to ““…I’m gonna find another you…””

  1. Adams Says:

    I have faith in you.

  2. Audrey Says:

    It will get better. It will take a few weeks but you’ll adjust.

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